Well I finally talked to him...

i understand what you're going through very well im 19 and just met my father in march in the past he abused all of my half brothers and sisters mothers nearly killing one of them he attempted to kill me and i found out that he also tried to kill my oldest brother (whom i've never met) the only reason HE had the oppurtunity to meet ME (lol) is because i couldnt stand to carry the burden of anguish because of someone who was living their life while i suffered anymore so i found his current wife (my stepmom who i love very much and see frequently along with my youngest 4 brothers & sisters who are all by her) on Facebook (imagine that right? lol) she embraced as did my brothers & sisters his intentions though im very uncertain of (he went back to prison in july sentenced to 15 yrs for child molestation idk if it really happened or not) until march of this year my father furiously denied me even going as far as to lie to me on my 8th bday tellin me he was coming to see me i waited all day that bus stop with high hopes only to be crushed and to top it off he called to scream and rant and cuss me like a dog and tell me i was not his (even though my mother attempted to satisfy him with a blood test showing that i am infact by blood a garrison thankfully i dont have to carry the burden of the namesake though i do have all the traits that run in that family haha) but it seems odd that in a time when he wanted prayer and forgiveness he finally admitted he knew i was his but then he found out im in an interracial relationship and i have tattoos and piercings he pretended to love me while i was there but he never answered my texts or calls and i tried until his court date to talk to him so i still have this pain and anger inside me that is endless even when i appear happy on the inside im always angry and i know it stems from my issues with him. even though i do have issues of my own for some reason i seem to be very good at helping others so everyone brings their problems, secrets and whatnot to me and if nothing else it makes me feel good to know that i've helped others and people continue to uphold my good friend reputation by recommending me to other friends to talk to it gives me a sense of purpose that i normally dont have if you ever wanna talk hit me up i know i did a lot of "talking" in this comment but i also make an excellent listener i hope you find the serenity that you so qreatly deserve! remember this: "he'll need you before you need him." my husband is the one that first said this to me and i always remember this when someones takes advantage of me or anything of the sort they'll need me before i need them and thats a fact! good luck hun hope i helped!

I am so sorry about your dad. Having had a few "dad" figures in my life I understand what you must be feeling right now. I am so sorry.

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